The Audacity of Hope

I do think about ways to help people around me a lot. But it is so often where I feel like I'm treated unfairly. Like none cares about how I would feel with them doing as such to me. And when they do realise, I doubt they would bother to do anything about it.
Such is happening to the world. Everyone expects to be treated importantly while treating people around them lightly. How absurd. Everyone asks of what others can give them and not wake up everyday asking the world how can they contribute; how can they be useful. Compassion and empathy has been replaced by materialism and indifference.
Talking about it now instead of letting it swirl around my head helped me analyse. The words of Jesus is so true now. That I am here to serve others and it's alright to be treated unfairly because He knows what I go through and do for His people. I must ask " How does that make me feel?", if someone else receives that same unfair treatment I was handed to, if someone received a random act of kindness. Decide. So what if there isn't anyone who cares? Be the first. After all, God was graceful enough to grant me salvation and am merciful enough to forgive of my sins over and over again. The world is running dry of hope and love, weep with them, then hold their hands and guide them to the right destination.

" I am always doing things I can't do, that's how I get to do them"

Pablo Picasso

I am dying soon......

I decided very spontaneously to donate blood 3 weeks ago. The next week, I received a letter from the blood tranfusion department of UM stating that I need to go for a blood test asap. I guess there must be something wrong with my blood; dad was very worried. And so, I did it in a small clinic nearby (Dr. Hoo) instead. The report will be coming out tomorrow. Not worried, just curious. I might carry some deadly virus and will be dying very soon. Can't wait!

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Went to Rachel's house after dinner and talked to her (and Daniel) a heck lot of things that is concerning me at this moment of time. It's good to have someone listen to my worries/rantings and tell me that I'm just thinking too much. Pinjamed Daniel's guitar and strummed a few strings. Am still waiting to get my Farida guitar, and one for Daniel also of course.

Called Seem afterwards and we're gonna have a slumber party at mua place tomorrow night. Nyehehe, happy happy. Time for 'Operation stuff everything everywhere else but my room"

Am looking at the laptop screen with extreme sharpness poking my eyes. Sis who was trying to sleep next to me got irritated and am sleeping in mom's room now I suppose. Yay! another night having the whole bed to myself.